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Taldrenites => Dynaverse II Experiences => Topic started by: FPF-Paladin on July 09, 2004, 07:25:24 am
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Well, not really sure how to start... or what exactly to say.
After something just over two years of playing SFC II in both its' incarnations, my time here has come to a close indefinitely. Real life sometimes just deals out cards that are hard to play and often others make decisions that leave a person no choice but to accept.
My longtime better half and I are parting ways due to her health (diagnosed with a rare thyroid condition that in her own words "is worse than PMS, All the time", still waiting for biopsy results to see if it's also cancerous) and our poor state of finance. For all of you who have asked me over the years about my ships' namesake, it's her. And she largely has been an angel. It's harder than normal for me to accept because, knowing her condition and the fact her doctors all warned us that she'd be an emotional rollercoaster, I'm not sure it's ending for the right reasons. She's also burned out from a year and a half management course where we basically hardly had time for one another because she was so busy.
That long for any couple is bound to cause a rift between them, I suppose... right now stress just makes her condition worse as it quickens whatever antihormones she's producing that are destroying her thyroid, so I'm trying to be noble about it. It's sad because beyond the matter of bills, health, and the fact that her course was so intensive, we were very happy together and I have doubts that what's happening is for the right reasons.
Which brings me here, now... everything we have is going to be sold to pay down our credit debt as best we can. Which sadly includes the only real form of distraction and entertainment I still enjoy, the computer. It was hers to begin with before I upgraded and tweaked it anyway really. Though we're technically married under Canadian laws concerning common law spouses, I have no interest in making this harder than it's already going to be on her so I've made no attempt to keep anything myself including our car. Maybe I'll regret being this soft hearted in the future, but honestly I am the type of person who believes that negative actions never really improve things.
I know I've never been a vocal member of the community, sang drunken songs over voice comms or been a nutter for any of the campaigns I've flown on, but I still feel a sense of belonging here, a home away from home in virtual space if you will. I don't know how long it will take me to rebuild, but I know another computer system is something that can't happen for a long time. I want to say I'll return someday really, but I'm afraid that by the time I can come back the flame wars will have driven everyone apart here. New blood being hard to come by now since Taldren shut things down.. well, it's a depressing thing to think too much about.
There are so many players here who I've fought alongside and against that it's not really feasible to say proper farewells. There really are a lot of good people here, even though I know we get worked up on forums and let our competitive sides get the better of us sometimes. I'll especially miss my fleetmates in the SSCF, a kinder and friendlier group of people I've yet to meet online - I've sort of been one of its' wayward sons, being completely a D2 player with no mic to really socialize or get to know others more personally like I would have liked to have done. But, and any one of them would probably be quick to say, we play to have fun - and I've had a blast.
I'd like to especially thank a few people in particular: KRolling for getting me hooked on forums ::) these blasted things have taken more of my time than I'd like to admit! I've probably checked all the major SFC boards every day the past few years; TraceyG for our time on IDSL together, way back before the fleet affiliations we have now - it was my first serious d2 and was the deciding factor that made me decide to leave GSA matches behind. Oh, and I thought you were a sweetheart by words alone long before any of your infamous sigs; Freeman and Pestalence in the EFF for my early GSA days and training, Terry for talking to me about joining the SSCF in the beginning; Die Hard for filling in the last few blank spots in what skill I possessed a few campaigns back - I'm sorry I won't be able to wing against the klingons in GW3, you gave me the final bit of confidence I needed to take it to the Coalition PvP wise, may your torps land true always; Hooch for being the type of person I can't help but respect by word and deed, and for being able to raise morale when it things looked dark; All the players who I wish I had time to mention that I've flown with, all the Coalition players who I'm sorry I won't get a chance to know better - especially the ones I faced during RDSL, you'd better all keep those skills sharp because whenever I manage to find my way back here I'm going to hold you all to rematches in semi-normal ships (j/k, it was always in good fun even when it was frustrating). And to anyone who joining in my roleplaying, a special nod to you for allowing me to imagine the command chair underneath me, even just for a little while.
Well.. this is already much longer than I think it should be. I wish you all the best, and you have my heartfelt thanks for the comraderie and fun we've shared here. It's been an honor.
Main reactor is offline, sir. All armanents offloaded, all systems checked and locked down.
Very good, number one... *pauses to keep emotion in check* ... go to minimum power levels and close the seals. It's time for her to take her final rest now.
Aye, Captain.
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It seems as if my journey begins anew now... godspeed to you all and all the best in life.
Signing off,
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SSCF-Paladin
USS Jenn Angel
"A single dream is more powerful than a thousand realities"
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Good luck to you with everything in the future. You will always be welcomed back.
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It is times like these I wish I had all the money in the world to share.
I don't know what to say, except I'll be praying for both of you.
Come back quickly as you can.
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Kimberly
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It's always bad to hear about a married couple splitting up, but at least, if it's any consolation, it's not because of any ill fealings in this case. May you two reunite in the future and come back stronger than ever.
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-Douglas
aka
SSCF-LeRoy
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Paladin , Best wishes and hopes to see life in all aspects turn arround for you. I know this is a sad moment for all of us,but most importantly i hope that in the long run you 2 can salvage your relationship.
best of wishes,
Don
AKA- SSCF-2step
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Best of luck to you Paladin. I hope everything turns out better then you could imagine, and that we see you sooner, then later.
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Fair winds, clear skies , and smooth seas...
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"Comms....lay out a homing beacon...maximum range and duration"
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Keep fighting the good fight.
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Best wishes for both of you. I hope that things work out better than you expect.
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KBF-KVet
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Man I'm so sorry to here this Paladin. Pm Me your RL Info, i'll try and see what I can do to help you out Bro.
Of Course your wife is in My Prayers.
Stephen
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We'll miss ya. Paladin....best wishes and take care of yourself.
With any luck, things will turn around for the better for you and we'll still be here to welcome you back.
Fair winds, man...
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Time is a wonderful healer of all wounds. Give it time, and then come on back once things calm down.
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Best Wishes Paladin
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Good luck with everything Paladin, and I hope we see you again.
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I don't know you that well, but have seen you around here for some time now, anyway...
I'm familiar with thyroid disorders, it may be bad now but there is light at the end of the tunnel, once the gland is dead/irradiated/removed the magic of synthroid can provide a pretty normal existence. Here's hoping things get better for you both.
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Good luck and fair winds Paladin...
Don't sell everything off. Keep your SFC disks. Hopefully, one day, you can get another computer and can rejoin the family...
That is, once you square everything else together. Hopefully they can fix her up and you two will get back together...
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Best wishes Paladin, and I shall pray to the Gods for you and yours.
Regards,
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I'm sorry to see on of our own leave.I'm praying for both of you bro.I'll keep a seat saved for you in the tavern when you come back.
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Best of luck Paladin. Everything changes over time (sometimes you'd be surprised how much). What may be the case today may not necessarily be the same tomorrow. Hope to see you back on sometime in the future. If not, then let me wish you a long and happy journey now.
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Good luck with everything Paladin, Take Care.
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Best wishes for both of u. Listen what Jinn wrote, is so true.
I hope u can get back to ur home away home.
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Paladin,
I hope that things heal between you and your wife. Please remember that you will always be welcome here, even if you can only come and post in here from a library computer. I hope your wife gets better, and I'm sure everyone here will be praying with and for you, and I know I will be. Again, thank you so much for helping this, no... our community. Godspeed friend, and I hope that things work out.
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F9th Captain SkyFlyer.
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GL...Bud Take it one day at a time !
We'll be here when you get back... :)
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Good Luck Bud.
If this is the downhill side of lifes roller coaster...the uphill side is coming fast... ;)
V
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Man I wish I caught this sooner!
Good luck to the both of you Alien's and my thought will go out to you two. :(